Most of the time, I've associated materializations with some sort of physical, tangible, thingy or a synchronization of events that deliver some sort of connection or outcome.

But this time, last night, I did something different.  In fact, I had two materializations emerge on the same evening, back to back with each other, both quite unexpected and both delivering far more than I anticipated.

The first was with my husband wherein he suggested a certain activity.  We had tried this once before, several years previously, and my anxiety at the time was profound.  I felt extremely uncomfortable and was overly sensitive.  It was not a good experience, though I managed to camoflage it well enough that it appeared I was at least amused.  I was very busy putting the squilch on it and I succeeded, admirably.  It was not brought up again and for all practical purposes seemed to be immediately forgotten.  Whew!  And I was safe for a number of years.  Until last night.  When my husband suddenly decided that we would go out for appies and drinks.  And that experience was so unexpected and relaxing and that we suddenly found ourselves on the way back to that place.

But this time, I did not feel the encroaching tide of anxiety.  I looked for it.  But I didn't find it, nor did I expect to!  And the sense of joy I felt was palpable!  The absence of anxiety was so profound that the air itself felt different ... it was softer, silkier, and dare I say ... smoother.  Numerous times I closed my eyes and breathed, waiting.  But nothing came to stop me.  No thoughts.  No tingles.  No shivers.  And no bad feelings at all, anywhere!  NONE!  I marveled at my happiness in simply accepting being there and enjoyed myself.  I did.  I enjoyed myself.  (hehehe!)

When we returned home, I logged on and checked my messages.  A friend was available and we chatted for a minute or two.  Then we played a round of a game we are devising together to explore emotions.  Again, this round was like my experience earlier in the evening ... completely unexpected! Twice in one evening, the Universe appeared before me like Santa Clause on Christmas Eve ... his gifting bag heavy with promised presents.  I wanted to say no, to stop.  In fact, I'm sure I did; I know I did.  But he wouldn't let me dive overboard.  I wanted to fly away but he grabbed my kite string and refused to let go.  I played a round and OMG! the liberation was intense!  Just re-experiencing it in my mind is enough to send a series of delightful shivers up my spine!  I feel the energy moving up, down, through and around me and wonder at how I could have ever approved NOT having it so!

So that was last night.  Two powerful experiences where I materialized emotions of freedom.  Both of these events came about because of my attention to my desires to grow, grow, grow!  I cannot, will not, want not, shall not let myself disintegrate (from less-less-less) when the more beautiful option of more-more-more is so readily handy for me to partake of!

More Bliss, Please!
More Satisfaction, Please!
More Freedom, Please!

My emotions are lighter, freer, brighter today ... unrestrained and exuberant.  Thanks to my husband and my friend, a person who's real name I don't know (but maybe I do in that Greater Sense)!  Life is gorgeous, strange, mysterious.

 And the soundtrack for all this?  This is the cute part ... it's Bartholomew, telling me that I can ride the energy of bliss all the way back to Source.  Here's the quote I worked on yesterday afternoon, unknowingly knowing just what the heck I was doing ... "You now feel sexual energy as coming to you, or arising within you. There is also the possibility that one day you might see that it could also move in other directions, moving deeply inward.  You could "ride" that power back to the Source."

I swear, I hear Oversoul Seven chuckling.  "Seven, are you laughing at me?"  I smile.  I am laughing at myself.  (*glee!*)