Very, very often during the last few years I’ve questioned the validity of my adventures in
consciousness, at times pondering if I was not just becoming a nutcase,
believing things that would in yet another speck of existence get me
into a asylum. I've often pondered how so called "channeling" works, I rather call these kind of explorations "improvisations in consciousness" that term suits my own explorations better. My dreamexperiences are giving me my own answers to that question.....and suprisingly waking-state movies help me to describe these experiences to other people. I've had a particular form of lucid dreams that I will call "peeking along"dreams. Dreams where I literally step into the shoes of another. 

The movie Being John Malkovich depicts what happens in those dreams so exactly that I was totally flabbergasted while watching it. In that particular movie, the script written by the creative Charlie Kaufman, people “peek along” with actor John Malkovich. Luckily my adventures never end being ditched at the side of some road in the middle of nowhere and I don't have to crawl through strange doorways in even more bizarre floors to peek along as is depicted in the movie.   Somehow many of Charlie Kaufman’s scripts and the interpretations given by different
directors (in this case Spike Jonze, in the case of Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind ,Michel Gondry) depict situations as how I experience them in the lucid dream
state more clearly than any work of art ever did to my opinion.

I find myself “inside”the body of another, my consciousness fully there, along with the perspective of this individual. This individual does not have to be aware of my consciousness while I peek along. I hear both the thoughts of this person and mine, mine are not interfering, the person is
simply not picking up on them.


What is most important during those dreams is that:
1) I have my own conscious awareness
2) I can observe the persons thoughts
3) I can observe my own
4) I can observe myself observing my own thoughts
5) And most importantly: I know that I am “really”there, that I am real at that moment, peeking along even though my presence might not be noticed by that other person.

That last one is very important. I think that when you channel, the only difference with
the dream situation is, that the one who channels is aware of that “other”
personality structure who peeks along, this other “layer” within self, (another common term is aspect) and that you
when you channel allow that person to speak or to write or whatever form
your “channeling” takes.

I think it could also happen that this “other”, who I feel is very intimately connected with who you are,closely related to your own personality structure or there would not be
enough overlap to be in communication, is unaware of the fact that he
peeks along through your eyes.

I think this happens very often to all of us in the dreamstate. And then off course you have the spontaneous happenings of these
communications (I think this happens frequently and with every
individual on the planet) where you are influencing another aspect of
yourself, without even being consciously aware of doing so, just as you
are influenced yourself by other aspects. I mean: how many layers are
there that we are not aware of, that are happening simultaneously with
our own perspective? Many I bet!

What is most important is that in such a dream I am aware of my own validity. I
know that I am real, I know that I am conscious in that situation,
that I am “real” whether the person in question is aware of me or not. I am there, and my presence did not do any harm whatsoever , we can co-exist at that location, together without taking up any more space. I am at such a moment just my consciousness... without a body. I was often unaware of Defrene’s or Yosef’s presence (aspects of me who like to peek along with me at times), later on I became aware of it, but questioned myself can that really be? Now I experienced how it is to be in their position, at least I recalled such experiences, as I said I feel that everyone has these experiences very often but forget them and I mean hey! I can’t deny that I was as real as real can be, just as I am aware and conscious now, so why won’t they be real and valid?

There is still a lot to be explored on the topic of how Defrene for  instance is related to me, I still like Jane’s/Seth’s perspective on that: Seth being a probable development of
Jane, seen from her perspective, different than Jane will ever become,
but in that way having the same roots. More on this later! I will describe my latest "peek along"dreams in the next blogpost that I will write when time allows :-)